Friday, January 21, 2011

Introducing: 'Natural Highs' :)

I got this email the other day... to be honest I seldom read forwards. But I was bored and so I had a read of this one :)

It was labled "natural highs".

As I was reading it and going through, in my mind, memories of each of them occuring a smile worked it's way across my face.

So I decided to blog about each of them so that, one day, when I'm old and have lost my memory I can look back and remember some special moments in my life. I may not even have to wait untill I'm old haha! I have the worst memory!

So here goes! And here's the list. :)

Natural Highs

1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket.
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail.
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Chocolate milkshake (vanilla or strawberry).
12. A bubble bath.
13. Giggling.
14. A good conversation.
15. The beach.
16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter.
17. Laughing at yourself.
18. Dancing in the rain.
19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
20. Running through sprinklers.
21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
23. Laughing at an inside joke with friends.
24. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
25. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
26. The first kiss.
27 Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
28. Playing with a new puppy.
29. Having someone play with your hair.
30. Sweet dreams.
31. Hot chocolate.
32. Road trips with friends.
33. Swinging on swings.
34. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
35. Making chocolate chip cookies.
36. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
37. Holding hands with someone you care about.
38. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
39. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.
40. Watching the sunrise.
41. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
42. Knowing that somebody misses you.
43. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
44. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.
45. Looking into someone's eyes and knowing that they love you so, so much

I know it's soooo long! But bare with me as I try and write down some of my cherished memories :). After all... my house might burn down, people might die, pictures can be burnt... but no one can take away your memories (especially if you write 'em down!) 

Monday, January 17, 2011

Thinking outside of myself: Hope for Haiti :)

I went and purchased a blogging app for my I pod and wrote this blog on it. The app ended up being crap and it lost everything on me! I was so mad! But oh well, what can ya do.
I feel so guilty for not writing my December blog for this... But I was so busy! I'm still trying to get all of Haven's announcements out. Sara walked into my room while I was writing up some addresses last night and asked me what I was doing. I told her and she said:

"I don't understand haha! He's already like a little kid!"

A little bit of an exaggeration but, to say the least, I definitely am a baby anouncement/thank you card failure. Oh add in there clean room/laundry doing/cooking failure cause I suck pretty h core at those things too.

Ok; back in topic! I wander wayyyy to much.

The topic I chose for this months 'thinking outside of myself' blog is one that is quite close to my heart. It's a difficult thing for me to understand or comprehend on any real level as I am surrounded with so many blessings; what is it like to go without? Even the device I'm using to write this blog right now is proof of how much I truly don't get it.

The idea for this blog first came about while I was feeding Haven one evening. Just moments before I had been complaining a huge amount because the heat in the room I was in had been turned off. I bundled up in some blankies and I turned on the tv.

There was a program on and the hosts of the show were interviewing families in Haiti. There was the main host as well as a couple of translators.They were interviewing a woman who had been fairly well off before the earth quake hit. She had a husband who provided for her and her four children, a roof over her head and food to eat. You would have never known...

She now has nothing but her four hungry young children. No roof overhead, no food for supper time... her husband had been killed. Can you imagine the emotional trauma one would have to face in the death of a husband? Then add on top of that, responsibility for four children, all pleading for you to find them something to eat; anything, really.. just something. I cannot.

I sat there, wrapped in security within warm cozy blankets, feeding my fat baby boy. Plenty of food for both of us; enough and then some. The translator began to cry as she translated sentence after sentence; sentences that were full to the brim with hopelessness. A beautiful two year old baby boy waddled up into the view of the camera.There was something about his face that siezed my attention; pulled at my heart strings. Maybe it was the little boy in him; the part that reminded me of Haven. But he was gorgeous and I paid close attention to what followed.

The young mother was asked what he would be eating that night. Her reply?

"I don't know what he will eat tonight. I don't know what any of my children will eat."

How gorgeous is this child??? This isn't the one that I'm writing about but he reminded me of him <3

I've watched the "Donate now" shows before. You know the ones... women and men relentlessly trying to guilt you into donating your money to their organization. It always seems so rehearsed; so practiced. Practiced to the point of turning you off of it because you feel as if it's not even real. I feel guilty saying this out loud. I apologize if I come off as a Scrooge... because I would be the first to wish more prosperity for all. But this is honestly how I feel about most money mongering programs.

This one was different though. I think it was the rawness of it; the lack of acting that it took to make it. it was so real to me. As I was laying there with everything that I needed and everything that my child needed or could ever want for... there was a Mother across the world wondering:

"How will I feed my two year old son tonight? How will I feed my three other children? What. Am I. Going. To do?"

Worse still, I can't imagine Haven being sick and not being able to help him. Haven was sick over the Christmas holdays and we had to bring him in to the Hospital. It was his very first Hospital visit and I really didn't enjoy having him sick enough to take him to the Hospital; I was worried. He kept on having coughing fits and having trouble breathing. He ended up having bronchialitis.

The bed was a little big for him haha.

A sad Mommy :(

What if I didn't have a Hospital to go to? What if there were no Drs. I mean I was worried for Haven but I knew he wasn't going to die. I knew he'd be alright. What if. he was dying. and I couldn't. do. anything...?

This is an every day reality for hundreds upon hundreds of women and men in Haiti right now. My heart breaks for the woman in this picture. I don't know her, but my heart goes out to her. I was listening to the radio the other day as a man spoke of hundreds of dead bodies - children included - were brought to be burried, many unclaimed.

It breaks my heart.


What a frustrating thing that there are so many in the world that have so little, while others have everything and anything that they could ever want for, let alone need.

Its easy to brush off the call for help; just another country in need. One person can't change much... right? A little goes such a long way though! There are millions of organizations to which you can offer help to. Here is an awesome guide that offers pointers on how you can help and links to trusted organizations (sad to say, but there are tons of scams out there).

Let's all give Haiti some hope; let's fight for Haiti <3

Friday, January 14, 2011

What would 'Octo - Mom' do?

So this might be a short blog. But I had to get at least one in at some point in my life.

Right now my niece, Kesaia, is watching Goldi Locks and the three bears and entertaining Haven at the same time. So I must say that I can't complain.

I have a LOT of blogs in the writing right now and NOT a lot of blogs finished haha.

I had a surgery on Tuesday. I've officially concluded that the weirdest feeling in the world is going to sleep in one room... then waking up in another. Was so. not. fun. I came back into my room and any time that I moved even an inch I barfed everywhere. It was terrible. And my shoulders hurt! My shoulders hurt so badly you wouldn't believe! Why?? I donno... something about the air in my stomach pinching off a nerve.

The iv that they had to squiggle around and redo a million times!

Right now Haven is whining at me to pick him up; I can't pick him up :( I'm not allowed to pick him up for two weeks. I've resorted to super huge cuddle sessions whenever he gets really sad. I also have this system where I drag him off the bed and push him into his bouncy chair. Then I attach a dog leash to the bouncy chair and drag him around the house. greeeeeeeeeeeat hahahha. I'm allowed to do this right? Well. If I'm not... too bad! A Moms gotta do what a Moms gotta do.

Bad quality haha but this is our little contraption :)

He loves it.

I was watching Oprah Whinfry today and the Octo Mom was on. Man... I would hate being her and needing to get a surgery done. Seriously. How can you have 14 children and manage to not pick them up? I have no idea. I have no idea how she does it even if she hasn't had her gall bladder removed. You know it really irritates me that people hate her. Seriously. Get over it. Go ahead and disagree with her life choices; there's nothing wrong with that, but why hate someone you don't even know?

Now this is a gaggle of children hahaha

There's too much hate in this world for that kinda shiz.

My Mom's bringing home supper tonight; two guys and a pizza place! Mmmmmmm. But she won't be home for like half an hour. How much does that suck? I'm starvin'!

I think Haven's starvin' too :( feeding a baby that you aren't allowed to hold is actually pretty difficult. I usually just lay down beside him; but even this is getting hard. He's kicked me right where all my stiches are three times already and I so much don't look forward to it.

One of my 'less disgusting' stitch wounds... just for you!

Anyways. I can't ignore his starvingness forever.

So... goodbye blogging world - hello pain.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Resolutions of Twenty-One-One

1. Trust.

2. Study my scriptures morning and night.

3. Say my prayers morning and night.

4. Only watch one hour of tv a day.

5. Give every person I meet the benefit of the doubt and try seeing the best in... everyone.

6. Laugh uncontrollably once a week.

8. Do something productive every. single. day.

9. Let go of what I can. not. change.

10. Change... what I can change.

11. Forgive those who have or will use me; have or will  intentionally or carelessly hurt my heart.

12. Do something kind for someone once a day.

13. Be a good Mom.

14. Be the friend that my friends are to me (my friends are not jerks; they're awesome ha).

15. Try my hardest to treat others the way I want to be treated.

16. Take responsibility for me; my choices, my life, my failures, my strengths, my short comings, my moments of over coming.

17. Accept that I can not control other's choices.

18. Cry when I need to cry & remember that real strength is vulnerable.

19. Acknowledge 20 things that I'm grateful for every single day day plus write it down.

20. And last but most definitely not least... when I fail this list or anything in general... start again the next day.

"Never, never, never give up."
- Micheal Scott