Sunday, June 26, 2011

10 months; it won't change

I just love this post. Every month, I love it more and more. I get to dedicate the whole thing to my sweet Haven.


oooo i do adore you!
This month has been a crazy month for me. I've been busier and busier with studying and work related things. This month, probably more than any other month in Haven's life, I've spent a lot of time away from him. Some would laugh at that statement, because really it's only been a couple evenings (while he's sleeping) here and there. But for me it feels like a lot of time. 

The way I felt is summed up pretty well in this quote right here. It was written by a Mother for her niece who was becoming a Mother for the first time:

"I feel I should warn her that no matter how many years she decides to invest in her designing career after the baby is born, she cannot avoid being professionally derailed by motherhood. She may successfully arrange for childcare, but one day she will be waiting to go into an important business meeting and she will think about her baby's sweet smell. She will have to use every bit of discipline to keep herself from running home, just to make sure he is fine."

Let me tell you all! I have had to practice every bit of discipline to keep myself from running home to hold my baby boy. Many times I've had to tilt my head back in hopes that the tears welling up in my eyes some how get sucked back so that no one notices I'm crying.


how could i not when this face is so darn cute <3
Yesterday I was driving home. I missed my boy and it was late so I knew I wouldn't see him 'till the morning. I missed him so much. I flicked on a CD and had a good cry as I listened to this song.

A side note for my son:        Haven,

I mean every word of this song.
I love you.
There are plenty of things that change in this world;
friends change,
homes change
schools change,
pathways change,
hearts change,
But one constant that you can always rely on
is my love for you.
'Cause it won't ever change. 
- Mom


Never Knew I Needed

- Ne-Yo

For the way you changed my plans
For being the perfect distraction
For the way you took the idea that I have
Of everything that I wanted to have
And made me see there was something missing

he even loves me without make up :)

For the ending of my first begining
And for the rare and unexpected friend
For the way you're something that I never choose
But at the same time something I don't wanna lose
And never wanna be without ever again


my little johnson's baby <3

You're the best thing I Never Knew I Needed
So when you were here I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So now it's so clear I need you here always


i love you one million

My accidental happily (ever after oh oh oh)
The way you smile and how you comfort me (with your laughter)
I must admit you were not a part of my book
But now if you open it up and take a look
You're the beginning and the end of every chapter


hey mommy,
just thought you wanted some help pulling out all of the wet ones and throwing them all over the floor :)

You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So when you were here I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed (that I needed)
So now it's so clear I need you here always


look at those sunnies. hahaha

Who knew that I'd be here
So unexpectedly
Undeniably happy
Said with you right here, right here next to me
(Boy) you're the...

so. you're pretty amazing.


You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So when you were here I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So now it's so clear I need you here always
Baby baby


<3

Now it's so clear I need you here always



No comments:

Post a Comment