He is perpetually happy. He is so, so happy! The other night, he woke up right when I was about to quit studying and go to sleep. I thought that if I just laid beside him, he would lay beside me and maybe cry for a bit and then go to sleep. But I was wrong. Nope, he did not want to go to sleep at all. He just wanted to sit beside me and laugh hysterically whenever I tried to push him down onto his back.
Bex sits up. I push him down. He laughs hysterically, like the deep kind of belly laugh that creeps it's way into your heart and forces you to smile. After he catches his breath from his jolly laughing he tries to pull himself up and once he finally wiggles up, I push him back down. He laughs hysterically. And on and on. Of course Bex is the babe that keeps me up with his laughter, rather than his cries.
Sometimes when he wakes up in the morning at the crack of dawn (yup, that's what I said #whoneedssleep) he sits in the middle of the living room floor and just smiles and smiles. He has a special "I'm totally so full of happiness" smile where he grins with all his little chicklet teeth, closes his eyes and tilts his face up to the sky like he just can't contain it all. Sometimes he'll tilt his head so far back that he flops over backwards and then starts laughing hysterically.
Let's not get carried away, though. Bex has his fair share of tears too. Mostly when he is teething or gassy. But let's be honest, who wouldn't be a little perturbed by sharp calcium formations pushing it's way through gums? And who wouldn't be a little upset by being so full of gas, your gut is churning? I know I would be a little bit upset.
On top of that, he may have wide grins, but this does not mean that he has no preferences. Before Bex was born we bought him a beautiful, ivory, minky bed sheet. It is so soft and cuddly. I've always used it in his crib and have only switched it out with Hav's minky crib sheet. The other day though while I was putting him down for his nap, he barfed everywhere (a norm for him) because he drank too much milk. I had to switch out his sheet and the other one wasn't yet in the cupboard so I had to settle for a cotton one with animal print. He woke up from his nap screaming and sitting in his crib starring at the strange dark spots on his normally solid ivory colored sheet. I didn't think much of it. I put him to bed in the dark and assumed the animals wouldn't bother him. He laid down and I was patting his bum. He kept rubbing the blanket and wailing so I finally picked him up rocked him and just as he was drifting off laid him in his crib. He rubbed the sheet again and then started wailing all over. At this point I had clued into the fact that he maybe didn't like the sheet. I switched it out for his ivory minky, nursed him, and laid him down. He reaches over with his hand, rubs the minky sheet and then totally relaxes, closes his eyes and drifts off to sleep. This boy takes after his Dad this way: he has a few preferences and he will be SURE to tell you ALL about it.
When Bex becomes sleepy, he just wants to be held and kept close which I'm totally ok with. Bex usually doesn't like kisses or hugs or snuggles overly. I like to terrorize him anyways though. Let's be real here, I could smooch his soft rolly cheeks all day.
Bex adores his brother - from a distance. He laughs at him hysterically when he does crazy things. I can do the exact same thing as Haven and Beckum will still laugh harder at Haven. He really does love his brother.
This love does not cause Beckum to put up with any shenanigans that are alarming or potentially dangerous. Beckum appreciates his bubble. If Haven gets a little too close to even the outer edges of his bubble, his face takes on resemblance to a gremlin and a pterodactyl shriek erupts from his mouth.
When we're talking about Bex and relationships, we can't not mention his love for his Daddy. Oh how he loves his Daddy. When he comes home for lunch, Beck's face lights up. He toddles to him as fast as his short, chubby legs will carry him. He makes this panicked grunty noise like "Daddy, I'm here, pick me up now now now now." Nine times out of ten he wants his Dad.
Bex had a special moment when we were at Disney Land and he met Whiney the Pooh. The second he saw him his little face lit up and he started laughing and smiling. I think we can safely say that Pooh bear is his favorite Disney character.
Beckum's favorite food right now changes daily, so I don't know what to tell ya there. One thing he does enjoy eating is SPAGHETTI SQUASH and HALLELUJAH for that, folks, because heaven knows I have enough of it! My garden mass produced spaghetti squash this year - I don't know what I'll do with it all. Hunter basically detests it and Hav basically detests it because "Daddy" basically detests it. But HAH! Becky Bob is not swayed by his Daddy psychologically quite yet. And so I feed him full of spaghetti squash. I think he likes it because it's easy for him to grab in fist fulls and shove in his mouth. He also seems to like mild tasting food. He doesn't even really love sweet food all too much.
Bex wakes up twice in the night still. We have a routine though and he usually doesn't wake up for the first time until 11, around when I'm just heading for bed. I nurse him and lay him back in his bed and he drifts off again. Then some time in the night - I really don't know when, because hunter gets up to get him for his second wake up - he comes into bed with us and snuggles until the morning. His wake up time is between 6-7:00 am right now and he's SURE to tell you that he is awake and ready to get out of bed. He crawls over to Hunter, sits beside his head, and then proceeds to slap his face and cheeks until he finally gives up and gets out of bed.
Beckum has been such a joy to have in our little family. He is peaceful and loving and he is not phased by a lot.
The past couple of months have been difficult on our little family. I transitioned from spending all of my time with the boys, to having to be a part from them for the majority of the day. Hunter has been in the busiest time of his work responsibilities.
In the past two months I have gone to school each day. I learn of all of the atrocities the world has to offer; the pain, the abuse, the hate, the loss, the devastation. I come home on some days feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders.
It all is really quite taxing. It really does cause one to lose hope in the goodness and joy in the world.
But when I come home I know I can count on one thing: Beckum toddles over, with arms outstretched and with his giant toothy grin.
Yes, there is bad in the world. So much of it.
But there is oh, so much good in the world too. There is sweetness and joy in the world. There is pure happiness to be found in so many places.
And my sweet Beckum's smiles and peace filled soul remind me of that again and again.
We do so love our baby Beckum.
|A pirate and his Parrot|
|one of our very most favorite people, ms julie obrien. Sbe made our trip to disney land , las vegas and st george an amazing trip by joining us and helping out with the kiddos. We were so blessed to have her.|
|Wedding clean up!|
|Weddings for days. Bex got to show his cuteness in some very important weddings this year!|
|When bex wants his food, he wants it now.|
|one day i will have to write a review about this stroller, the croozer 2 plus. it has seriously been one of my best baby purchases. ever.|
|bex regularly expresses his sassy side.|
|this is his face when hes getting into something that he knows he's not supposed to. could you say no to that?|
|a visit to sask,|
|Trying to dive in for a kiss, and him swatting my face away. He hates kisses lol.|
|having some fun at the beach!|
|Bex first major wound :( a cut in the bath tub.|
|one year photo shoot :)|
|considering how much he hates kisses, he sure does know how to make it look like he does.|
|The beginning of his 'head tilting', falling backwards smile.|
|mr beckum on his birthday: he loves spaghetti and spaghetti sauce.. he was thrilled with the meal. I'm not sure if he got more on his face than in his stomach.|
|the curiosity of a babe <3|